What Evangelical Christians Get Wrong About Deconstruction  🔗 **Source:** [What Evangelical Christians Get Wrong About Deconstruction](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QEY_e53hDko) > [!note]+ Document Notes > --- > tags: [deconstruction, evangelicalism, christian-nationalism, purity-culture, religious-trauma] > author: April Ajoy > source: April Ajoy (YouTube) > reference: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QEY_e53hDko > date created: 2026-09-28 09:00 > --- > > [!info] Generated analysis — not the author's words. Sections below are machine-written > > from the captured source. Only text inside `> [!quote]` blocks is verbatim from the author. > > Do not quote or attribute any other line to the named author. > > [!warning] Auto-caption artifacts. The reacted-to speaker's name renders as "Tara Lee Cobble" > > and "Terry Lee Cobble"; her actual name (per the video's own metadata) is Tara-Leigh Cobble. > > Her podcast is garbled as "the daily podcast called the daily recap" — its real name is > > The Bible Recap. Her tour brand renders as "Israel Lux," likely IsraeLuxe. Book-recommendation > > names are also mangled: "Kristen Dumé" for Kristin Kobes Du Mez (*Jesus and John Wayne*), > > "Jamar Tisby" for Jemar Tisby (*The Color of Compromise*), and "Linda K. Klene" for Linda Kay > > Klein (*Pure*). April's own book is captioned correctly once ("Star Spangled Jesus") and > > garbled once ("Star Sminkle Jesus") — the real title is *Star-Spangled Jesus*. April's spouse > > is named once as what the caption renders "be sure" and once as "Beecher"; neither is treated > > here as a reliable spelling. Verify all proper nouns before quoting outside this file. > # 🏷️ Title: What Evangelical Christians Get Wrong About Deconstruction > ## 🧭 Table of contents > - [📝 Summary](#-summary) > - [📖 Main content](#-main-content) > - [🗒️ Notes](#️-notes) > - [📚 References](#-references) > - [🗣️ Paraphrase](#️-paraphrase) > - [📰 Newsletter](#-newsletter) > - [✅ Action items](#-action-items) > - [🧪 Hypotheses](#-hypotheses) > - [📊 Methodology](#-methodology) > - [❓ Questions](#-questions) > - [🔮 Future research](#-future-research) > - [💡 Implications](#-implications) > - [🧠 Learning styles assessment](#-learning-styles-assessment) > - [📊 Accessibility assessment](#-accessibility-assessment) > - [🌍 DEIB assessment](#-deib-assessment) > - [✅ Logical validity](#-logical-validity) > - [🛡️ DARVO analysis](#-darvo-analysis) > - [🎯 Conclusion](#-conclusion) > ### 🔗 References > - Source: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QEY_e53hDko (April Ajoy, 26:12, published 2026-09-23) > - Tara-Leigh Cobble — host of *The Bible Recap*; the reacted-to clips are hers, sourced from elsewhere, not a collaboration with this channel > - April Ajoy's book, *Star-Spangled Jesus*, referenced twice > - Books named as personally formative: *Love Wins* (Rob Bell), *Jesus and John Wayne* (Kristin Kobes Du Mez), *The Color of Compromise* (Jemar Tisby), *Pure* (Linda Kay Klein), *Come as You Are* (Emily Nagoski) > ## 📝 Summary > - **What happened.** April Ajoy, a solo YouTube creator, reacts to two clips of Tara-Leigh Cobble (host of *The Bible Recap* podcast) discussing why people deconstruct their faith, then lays out April's own account of why April deconstructed and what the clips get wrong. > - **The claim.** Cobble's clips frame deconstruction as rooted in personal wounds and unmet expectations ("high anthropology"); April argues, from April's own experience and people April knows, that deconstruction is more often triggered by a real mismatch between what evangelicals teach and how evangelicals actually behave — April names white evangelical support for Donald Trump starting in 2016 as April's own catalyst. > - **Why it matters.** The video sits inside an active argument, on both sides of the aisle, about whether people who leave evangelicalism are reasoning their way out or fleeing pain — a framing dispute with real consequences for how churches respond to members who start asking questions. > - **Key stakeholders.** April Ajoy (creator, self-identified as raised Pentecostal, deconstructing since 2011); Tara-Leigh Cobble (subject of the reaction, not present to respond); an unnamed man in the second clip discussing demonic mind-reading; April's spouse, mentioned as coming out non-binary. > - **Risks and tradeoffs.** April generalizes from April's own social circle ("everybody that I know") to evangelicalism broadly; several numbers and historical claims are stated without citation; the tone toward Cobble is sometimes mocking, which cuts against April's own argument that dismissiveness is the problem. > - **Bottom line.** April's central claim — that hypocrisy, not just hurt, drives deconstruction — is argued from firsthand testimony rather than data, and the video is best read as one person's rebuttal essay, not a study. > ## 📖 Main content > - **The two source clips.** April found Cobble's content through April's Instagram Reels algorithm, which April says April has trained to serve April's "cringiest weird evangelical stuff." April researched Cobble, found she hosts *The Bible Recap* and runs paid Holy Land tours (IsraeLuxe, per the caption's "Israel Lux"), then reacted to two separate short clips: one about why people deconstruct, one about demons and mind-reading. > - **Cobble's framing, as quoted in the video.** In the first clip Cobble says most people who deconstruct have "a deep wound" and are seeking comfort by rewriting their worldview instead of turning to God. She illustrates with her own past belief that Jeremiah 29:11 was a personal promise about a husband, and describes reading it in context as being about Israel's exile, not an individual. > - **April's central counter-claim.** April argues the opposite causal story: deconstruction starts with encountering "some experience or some truth, something real that did not match what evangelicals were teaching," not with unaddressed pain. April's own example is 2016 white evangelical support for Trump despite the Access Hollywood tape and the Stormy Daniels story, paired with being told April's father would be disappointed in April for not voting for him. > - **A firsthand account, clearly personal.** April describes April's spouse coming out as non-binary and a subsequent meeting with their pastor, who reportedly responded to their account of finding real peace with, "If I wanted to be happy, I would divorce my wife." April generalizes from this single account to a pattern April says April has also seen with other evangelical friends. > - **The "demonize the question" claim.** April argues evangelical culture tolerates doubt only conditionally — allowed as long as it doesn't change anyone's conclusions — and that the real gatekeeping happens at the first question that actually unsettles something, at which point (April's account) "everything unravels rather quickly." > - **The second clip: demons and mind-reading.** An unnamed man in this clip claims demons can read minds and describes this as advantageous because he can pray silently during sleep paralysis-like night terrors. Cobble recounts silently "casting out" a man on a New York City sidewalk who appeared to be in psychological distress, then hedges: "That could have been a coincidence." April contrasts this with what April was taught growing up Pentecostal — that demons could *not* read thoughts, only overhear speech — and argues the newer claim removes the "safe space" of unspoken thought entirely. > - **Christian nationalism as a throughline.** April argues the phrase "biblical truth," used by pastors to avoid explicitly endorsing a candidate, functions as a coded reference to a fixed bundle of positions (abortion, opposition to gay marriage and trans rights, gun rights, support for Israel) that maps onto one political party, and that this bundling is itself evidence there is no single "biblical truth." > - **Letting go of certainty.** April frames April's own multi-year deconstruction (self-reported starting in 2011, intensifying in 2016 and during the pandemic) as partly about releasing the need to have a settled position on every theological question, on the grounds that no one — including confident evangelical leaders — actually knows what happens after death. > - **Book and podcast recommendations.** April closes with a reading list April says helped April's own deconstruction: *Love Wins*, *Jesus and John Wayne*, April's own *Star-Spangled Jesus*, *The Color of Compromise*, *Pure*, and ( Hi everybody. Welcome to my YouTube channel. Um, I'm April A Joy and today I want to react to a couple videos by a woman by the name of Tara Lee Cobble. I I just looked her up today because I her video, this one that I'm going to play you showed up on my feed because again I have trained my Instagram reels algorithm to feed me just the cringiest weird evangelical stuff. So, I am constantly getting this kind of content and this one I can explain why it was so odd to me that I wanted to react to. So, then when I searched her, I found another video about her actually talking about deconstruction. And I thought I'd react to that video first, actually, because honestly, deconstruction is something that I've been wanting to talk about for a while more in depth. I used to talk about it a ton when I first got on TikTok and started making content back in 2020. I was kind of deconstructing out loud. Um, if you don't know what that is, deconstructing is kind of or deconstruction is a term that people have used to kind of describe questioning your faith. um having doubts kind of re-examining why you believe what you believe and taking out things that might be man-made or might be harmful and problematic and then replacing it with what you actually believe. There was a big wave of deconstruction during the pandemic. And I think that was because a lot of people ended up being home quarantined as we should have been in a global pandemic. And so, like for me, I was no longer going to a church every single week to get like my weekly dose of indoctrination. Um, which you don't realize how impactful that is until you stop going, which is one reason they make sure that they tell you to make sure you go to church every single week. There's that church guilt for not going. Um, so, and a lot of people were were dealing with that. A lot of people were stuck at home with nothing to do but overthink what they believed and what they thought and who they were and and wanting to just be more authentic. So that happened in 2020. Then it kind of tapered off. Um it was happened for a couple years kind of went stagnant for a little bit. And I I've been noticing what I think is another surge of people deconstructing especially in the second Trump administration with white evangelicals still overwhelmingly supporting Donald Trump. that I think was one of the biggest catalysts for deconstruction that we've seen was seeing evangelicals make someone as morally bankrupt as Donald Trump their Christian champion and then also the way a lot of those evangelicals and MAGA Christians reacted during the pandemic and how callous they were about taking care of our neighbor and like wearing a mask and the vaccine and demonizing anyone who was trying to do that. So, in reaction to all these people that are deconstructing, a lot of pastors and Christian leaders, they go out of their way to demonize deconstructing. They're they call it a fad. They, you know, they say, "Oh, people, they're just hurt by people in the church and but they're blaming it on God. They're throwing the baby out with the bathwater." So many things that is just so dismissive and untrue of why people actually start to question their beliefs. And so I saw this and again this lady's name is Terry Lee Cobble. Now I did not recognize her name or her face. I didn't think I knew who she was. Um but from her website she says that she hosts the daily podcast called the daily recap. And I do recognize that because it is regularly trending on like the spirituality religious charts on Apple podcast. One thing that I saw that was interesting that is listed on her website is she does these luxurious Israel tours every year. It's called Israel Lux or Israel Lux. Yeah, Israel Lux. Aims to provide a deluxe tour, luxury accommodations, incredible dining experience, and life-changing devotionals at the sites where Jesus lived, died, and resurrected. I don't know. Just the idea of throwing luxury on with that just feels a little icky. I don't know. But this is how much it costs. In case you were wondering, the tours range between 6,500 and $8,000 per person. That includes transportation, hotels, most meals, entry fees, and Bible teaching, but does not include your airfare to get there. So, these are not cheap experiences by any means. But anyway, I just I just saw that on her website. And I just thought that was an interesting little tidbit, especially just in light of everything happening in the world. But I digress. Now, let's watch this video of her talking about deconstruction. >> What would you say to people that deconstruct? >> Most of them have a deep wound. They have decided to not seek comfort in the one place it can be found, but to seek it in rewriting their worldview, rewriting who God is. I think that high anthropology is at the root of all that. That idea that I deserve more than this. So, for instance, for me, just good Christian girl in my sphere, the language was you're going to have a great husband someday. God's going to guess what? Still single, it still has not panned out the way everyone told me that it would pan out. And so, for some people, they don't get what they want. And they're like, "God's holding out on me." But guess what? God didn't promise that to me. People did. And there were times I certainly thought God promised it to me because I would do Bible roulette where I just, you know, like, "And look, God, you said this. I'm going to I'm going to claim this promise for myself and back you into a corner and reading scripture in context. One of the things I hit was that a lot of those verses that I held up as my like, yes, God's going to come through for me weren't about me at all. Jeremiah 29:11, you read it in context and you go, okay, the prophet Jeremiah talking to people who are about to go into 70 years of exile and he's letting them know like, hey, that exile is not the end. God's going to bring you out of exile. You're going to go back to Jerusalem. He's going to restore things. But it's written to a people group, not an individual person. And here I am trying to snatch this verse out of ancient Jewish context that's written to exiles in Babylon and make it about me and a husband. Like the audacity. >> Okay. I don't I don't really know what her still being single and not being married has to do with other people deconstructing, but I have noticed that that is something that a lot of evangelicals that are still evangelical say about and to people that have deconstructed from evangelicalism. And I have a perfect example of this. when my spouse came out non-binary, which is part of our story. Like I I can get into my personal deconstruction story another time because it's long or you can read a lot of that in my book Star Spangled Jesus wherever books are sold. Um shameless plug. But anyway, so be sure it just come out non-binary, I don't know, a few months prior. And then the pastor of the church that we had been going to, I don't remember who reached out to who, but we decided to get together with the our pastor and he wanted to kind of hear our story because I had also started to make my content online about a lot of things that I was learning. Again, like deconstructing out loud, been like, "Oh my gosh, I just learned that King James had a male lover and was at least by maybe gay." And uh, you know, fun little tidbits like that that no one ever told me in the church. So we meet with the pastor. We tell him our story. Be sure goes through the entire like Saab story and trauma behind it all because because also like evangelicals they need trauma in order to accept your position. It which is another topic for another day. But we did we did the whole thing. um really shared our our hearts. And the pastor's response was simply like, well, is life about being happy though? Because we, you know, we told him like, we actually have peace that surpasses understanding now. Like we are genuinely like so much happier being our authentic selves. And he's like, "Yeah, but is that what is that? Is life about being happy?" and he looked at us and he said, "If I wanted to be happy, I would divorce my wife." We're like, "Okay." And we found that a lot like whenever Beecher would come out to like some of our evangelical friends, you know, that was kind of it. Like, well, if I wanted to be happy, I would do this, you know, like I'm I'm mis it's almost like, "Well, we are miserable, so you need to be miserable, too. Why are you not still being miserable like the rest of us? Anyway, I just found that uh I just I just find that an interesting an interesting thing that they they do. Okay, going back to the beginning though, this is also super dismissive when she says most of them have a deep wound. They have decided to not seek comfort in the one place it can be found, but to >> Okay, that is just not true. Like I I most of the people that I know, actually everybody that I know that started deconstructing was because they came in contact with some experience or some truth, something real that did not match what evangelicals were teaching. Like for example, for me, a a big piece of it was seeing how so many white evangelicals back in 2016 threw all their support behind Donald Trump. And it wasn't even just that. It was the way that they demonized everybody that called that into question, like myself. And I didn't even vote for the Democrat back in 2016 because I hadn't deconstructed that a Christian could do that. Uh, spoiler alert, they absolutely can and I would probably I would definitely argue should now. But the way that they immediately told me I was going against the will of God, that my late father would be disappointed in me because I wouldn't vote for Donald Trump. And and he had plenty of scandals then. I mean, they have since gone way up, but back then there were still a ton. The the Stormmy Daniels thing was still around. the Access Hollywood tape where he literally bragged about assaulting women on a hot mic and then suddenly they're like, "Well, God can use anybody." But if you asked, "Well, couldn't God also use Hillary Clinton?" Then they were like, "No, that's different." For me, it was genuinely wanting to follow the teachings of Jesus and realizing that the group of people that I was associating with and that I looked up to were not actually following what Jesus said to do with who they were supporting, with who they were putting in power, with the policies they were enacting. Not to mention, they were pushing Christian nationalism, but that's another story. I could not in good conscience stay in that group of people knowing how hateful that they were and how much they demonized the people that Jesus told us to love. Like I couldn't in my good conscience stay there. I had to start asking questions. Like that was that was the starting point. And what they don't tell you when you're inside. The reason they demonize asking questions, they don't want you to ask too many questions. They they say, "Oh, yeah, you can have doubts. As long as you still land in the exact same place, as long as you still believe all the same things that everybody else does, that it's okay to ask questions." But once you do ask that first question, everything unravels because it is so tightly knit and you have to white knuckle your faith because you constantly carrying so much cognitive dissonance because a lot of things do not make sense at the same time that once you pull the string, even if it's just about one thing, everything unravels rather quickly. My deconstruction just started out of a genuine desire to follow Jesus better, to follow the red letters more closely. And have I been hurt by people in the church? Yes. But I believed when I started deconstructing that those were just a few bad apples and it was not the whole system. But the further I the more questions that I asked, I realized that white evangelicalism as a whole is just the roots are rotten. and I just could no longer be a part of that. Also, deconstruction is not fun. I would call it an existential crisis. Like the amount of times I spent crying and like laying on the floor balling, begging God to like give me some sort of answer because I don't know what's true anymore. Like, was everything I believed and was taught a lie? That that no one wants to go through that. No, I don't think anyone chooses to deconstruct. You have you just start asking questions once things no longer make sense. Unless you are willing to shove your own integrity, your own self down and ignore your basic instincts, which is another thing evangelicals tell you to do. Die to yourself. Don't tr you. Your instincts cannot be trusted because you are inherently sinful and evil. And let me tell you, letting go of that where you are constantly thinking that your body is, especially if you're a woman, your body is like a ticking time bomb for men to just fall into lust and that you you're constantly needing to cover it up. Almost like your body is a is is a by default a weapon of Satan. To suddenly realize, no, my body is my body. My brain is my brain. I can trust myself. Like I like myself so much better now than I did when I was evangelical because you're just taught pretty much to hate yourself in in a lot of ways. And you're told too like you're so disgusting that like even your best day, even your most righteous self is still a filthy rag to God because that's how good God is and how disgusting and bad you are. Like that gives you a complex in life. I just find it very annoying when uh evangelicals try to discount deconstruction as, oh, it's just a bunch of hurt people that don't know what else they're going to do. Let's see what she says. She says they they don't go to the one that can help them. >> You get in rewriting their worldview, rewriting who God is. I think that I no one's rewriting who God is. you realize the evangelical worldview does not add up and does not match the existence of an allloving God. It doesn't work. A God that would love us all unconditionally would not send people to hell for all of eternity, even if they were good people, but they just happened to believe the wrong things. That is not a good God. That by default doesn't make sense. So anyway, but let me re let me show you this other video. So this other video is actually what I saw first that made me laugh and I will tell you I'll explain to you why. So it for just for some context I was raised very Pentecostal. So we were very we believed in demons and that not only could you not trust your own thoughts but that you know Satan could whisper and like demons could influence your thoughts. And so, you know, anytime you had a thought, you had to ask yourself, was that from God? Was that from me or was that a demon? You know, and honestly, if it was from me, I might as well be a demon cuz I'm so evil, you know. So, anyway, this was just wild to me because I've never I've never heard this even in my in my Pentecostal days. So, show me chapter and verse that says that Satan can't read your mind, that the demons can't read your mind. And I was like, well, he's not omnisient. And he's like, that's not omniscience. Just because you know something doesn't mean you know everything. But he said, "In my experience, demons being able to read your mind is actually to your advantage." And I was like, "What?" He regularly in his line of work experiences demonic attack. Typically, he sleeps on his stomach and wakes up to his head being pressed into the pillow in a night terror situation where he can't speak. And he said, "I can still pray in my mind. I can still pray the name of Jesus in my mind, cast out demons in my mind, and it works." >> That's a great argument. I would handle this situation that I'm about to tell you differently, but I was sitting at a cafe in New York City and there was a guy on the sidewalk who appeared to be manifesting some kind of demonic entity or entities. I just prayed silently, binding the enemy, speaking in the name of Jesus. The man just kind of looked confused and got in his right mind and just walked off. I might have done that man a disservice because scripture says if you kick the enemy out and you don't fill those the house with the spirit of the Lord, they bring back others. So that's why I say I don't know what happened there. That could have been a coincidence. >> TLC, mental exorcist. >> Do you see what I mean about like the mental gymnastics you're constantly going through? Like now I if she genuinely believes that now she has to think about demons that could take her thoughts and use them against her. So, I was taught and I I believed this until quite the old like more recently than I'd like to admit, but that demons could not hear your thoughts. And so, you needed to be careful what you said out loud because the demons nearby could hear you and use it against you. And for example, I was told if I said something like, you know, I'm thinking about I think this about a certain person, I don't know, and a demon hears that, then they could go to that person and whisper something in their ear that would they could then use against me in our next conversation or make me think, "Oh my gosh, this person just said this thing to me that I just thought this must be a God thing." But really, it's a demon thing. So then you can't trust even the the little god winks that we believed God would put out there because demons were listening. And so you shouldn't write it down either because they can read or say it out loud. So your thoughts were your only safe place. I also heard that as a reason to not go to therapy because when you're saying these things out loud to a counselor, the demons nearby can hear it and then use it against you through other people. truly like that alone like gives you so much anxiety. But then to to now say actually no, nothing is off limits. Demons are all are even going to use your thoughts against you. I know they're trying to twist that into a positive where you can I don't know telepathically cast the demons out. Um but no, like flip that. That just means demons can hear your thoughts and then use that against you. Also, this you don't realize how heavy this ideology is and was to carry until you leave it behind. And genuinely, I am so much happier and like feel so much more peace and freedom in my personal life than I ever did when I was evangelical. But which ironically I feel more anxious about the big big world because there's just a lot of scary things happening right now. That that's what keeps me up at night. But thankfully it's not whether or not a demon is reading my diary when I go to sleep to then use that against me. So yeah, one thing I do want to say, I know I do think that there is a new wave of people starting to deconstruct um and just starting to ask questions of their faith, especially in light of so much corruption in the evangelical church and in who they support as their leaders, especially politically. With Christian nationalism on the rise, whether your pastor admits they're a Christian nationalist or not, they a lot of times will push it. Um here's a fun fact. Uh if a pastor gets up and says, "We don't tell you who to vote for, but we want to tell you to vote for biblical truth." As long as you vote for biblical truth, um that phrase biblical truth is a dog whistle for Christian nationalism. And you can tell too because usually they will then list those biblical truths, which is abortion, which the Bible doesn't mention. Um usually gay marriage, trans issues, gun rights, somehow they've made owning guns a bib a Bible truth. um supporting Israel is always in there. Um and and there's there's a few others, but they always almost to a tea describe the Republican party. So, be very wary of that. There is no one party that holds a biblical truth because there is no one singular biblical truth. There are multiple worldviews within the Bible and it does contradict itself, which you learn when you read it objectively in the deconstruction. And I know it can be really scary to ask these questions. And if I can just give you any bit of advice as someone who's, you know, for over a I I really started deconstructing slowly in 2011. It really amped up in 2016 in the first Trump administration and then like accelerated in the pandemic. So it's been over a decade for me. Um, it can be a slow burn, but I know for me, like when I first started asking questions, I felt like I needed to fill that void really quickly. And what I mean by that is if I said, "Okay, well, I no longer believe in eternal conscious torment, but I need to believe something about punishment in the afterlife. So, what do I believe?" And I and I would feel this like strong desire to like I have to have a position on everything that I no longer believe. Like I have to fill that with something. I need to know. I I there's something that I need to know. And that need to know like that desire to know that you know that you know that you know I needed to deconstruct that like one of the first things. And once I deconstructed that need to know to like that need to have a position on this because so much when you're in evangelicalism it's like well are you uh preerttrib mid-trip post-trip about the tribulation and the rapture. like you had to have a position. You had to have a position on all these theological uh beliefs. And there there's multiple there's a lot of different ways you can believe about things because there's over 45,000 Christian denominations. Another thing I learned in deconstructing, but letting go of that need to know uh is is super important and I think will help you will just make your whole deconstruction process easier if you just realize there's no rush. It's not a race and you do not need to know where you stand on certain things. It's okay. And because really at the end of the day, nobody knows. Nobody knows what happens when we die. They will tell you that they know that they know beyond a shadow of a doubt even. But they really don't. Because even when I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt, I would tell you that I definitely know like 100% for a fact. you're really almost like convincing yourself at that point. And and I don't I don't say that like I don't think people are lying intentionally. I think they believe that they believe it 100% that they know it, but at the end of the day, nobody nobody really knows the answer to these things. So why stress about needing to have a position on something when you can do all the study in the I could study every book on the afterlife for the rest of my life and I can come to an educated guess and that's the best I'll ever have is an educated guess because I will not know and letting go of that need is crucial in my opinion. Um, maybe I'll give some like book wrecks too, just off the top of my head, that helped me in deconstructing. Um, Love Wins by Rob Bell, especially on the topic of hell and the afterlife was really good for Christian nationalism. Jesus and John Wayne by Kristen Dumé, also excellent. My book Star Sminkle Jesus. This one didn't help me because it's my book, but I do think this is really helpful for like deconstructing Christian nationalism and and and starting to recognize how much of Christian nationalism kind of co-opted your evangelical faith. The Color of Compromise by Jamar Tisby, such an amazing book that really highlights white supremacy and racism within evangelicalism historically. So Jamar Tisby is a historian and it is it was mindblowing to me how racist the roots of white evangelicalism in America are. Um I highly highly recommend that one. And Pure by Linda K. Klene is about purity culture and deconstructing purity culture. That one was super helpful for me. Also this one's not religious at all, but Come as you are by Emily Nagoski, I think is her name. Um, that one really helped me a ton in um, learning my own sexuality and learning to be comfortable with my own body because I just I harbored so much shame for just existing because of being raised in purity culture. Um, that one was a hard one to co to overcome and honestly I still have little like leftovers of purity culture in me that pop out every once in a while that I'm not proud of but it exists. Gosh. Yeah. Podcast. I listen to the like early liturgists, the liturgist and Rob Bell's podcast. Of course, this was years ago, so I'm sure there's much better, newer stuff out now, but these are just things that that helped me that I was like, I couldn't get enough of it. And yeah, so that's all I wanted to do today. And if y'all have any questions or if you have like topics you would like me to discuss, I'm, you know, I can try to do that if you want to leave it in the comment. Um, subscribe if you haven't. That also helps. Or liking my video. And yeah, thank you for being here., What Evangelical Christians Get Wrong About Deconstruction, April Ajoy, 01m3m1f7n8680qxnhw73t355vt.